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Archive for July, 2010

Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 25, 2010

…baby, i can’t help you while she is still around


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Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 24, 2010


my stupid dog, whom after i yelled at for moving all my shoes from one corner to another, put her paw on my foot & licked my leg


home baked bread

cool breezes & a porch to read on

good friends who make me laugh when i’m sad & have dragged me out of the forest i was in

being present for absolutely wonderful, beautiful moments in other people’s lives

crying more now because i’m happy & not because i’m sad

these are all things i’m thankful for, today. ❤

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Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 23, 2010

…i’ve been here before & i deserve a little more.

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Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 21, 2010

i don’t understand i don’t understand i don’t understand i’m gonna go read a book. or rather, tonight after work i’m gonna go pick up a new book to read.

you know, instead of trying to understand. i had fun last night

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Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 18, 2010

oh i am so thankful i’m me. & my instincts always lead me in exactly the right direction & that i have absolutely no need or reason to be as two-faced as some people seem to be. it’ll come back to you threefold someday, so be wise, be kind, above all, be true.

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dear [guardian angel]

Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 17, 2010

…it is soooo freaking hot today & it’s not even as hot as it has been over the last couple weeks. i’ve avoided all things that don’t have to do with the ocean, air conditioning or laying on my couch with a fan & i’m still dripping sweat. still, i’ve managed to clean up the house, run a couple errands (err, thats where the air conditioning part comes in) & took the dog to mackworth island. i liked it so much i think i’ll take her back tomorrow. i’m trying desperately to find lyrics for a song i heard that i thought was completely beautiful & i think would be what would be played if my guardian angel (that’s you) were to appear in front of me. i’m totally just guessing. but the music, & the words just absolutely wash over me & echo what’s in my heart. i’d tell anyone what was in it, if i knew myself – my heart, i mean. you know, because you see me; there are people close to me though who know me so little they think they’re aware of how i feel & this is not so. how can they be, truly? & what i feel may surprise even the ones who know me best.

so i’m sitting here schvitzing because i’m too cheap to pay for a/c & thinking about how i didn’t hear anyone in public speak a kind word to each other today & how people i know are slowly destroying themselves loving those who don’t or don’t want to or shouldn’t or do for the wrong reasons, love them back, & what does it matter because it’s all love & that’s what we always have no matter what: love. & my family asks to see me & i don’t go because i don’t know why other than i don’t like crowded hot places (clam festival) & how absolutely wonderful it was on the island this afternoon, with no one but my dog & i. is that so awful, g.a.? after all, we all got a pair of wings that you can’t see, says jimmy buffett. way up high we feel free. now, even though i’m curious as hell & just dying to know, don’t give me any more than i can handle at once, ok? i think rebecca wells had it right, people are more like the earth than we know. the last year has left too many cracks, & i’m just finding the glue.

oh & i found my song. thank you = )

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Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 16, 2010

why can you not say what is in your head, your heart? how much better would the world be if we did?

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Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 11, 2010


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coffee & a newpaper

Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 10, 2010

not going to lie though, i get the paper for the crossword puzzle, not for the articles. although i do skim them when i’m stuck on a question. obamas to visit MDI huh…well i’m glad they’re coming to maine because it is obviously the center of the universe & if you’ve never been here, you should hurry up & visit. except i’m a little disappointed that they’re going to be so cliche as to come to maine for the bar harbor, & nothing else. we live in an absolutely beautiful state & while i’m not arguing that MDI isn’t completely georgous, (the short time i lived there i was even more so grateful that we live in such a paradise) why don’t they visit other places? why fall for the tourist trap, for the people who have become snobby because they can afford to live on a peninsula that everyone just HAS to see. we have a lot of islands, full of pine trees & rocky shorelines. why does wiscassett or belfast or bethel get such bum reps? why does no one go up to the canadian border to see absolutely beautiful mountains & woods? people come here for our state’s beauty; but i think they rarely get to experience it. i believe the quiet loveliness of where we live gets overlooked a lot.

then again, i will be the first to admit: i dislike the tourism here. i’ll be the first to yell “go home!” to someone driving on the interstate with an out of state plate. in my own defense though, it’s not the people from away invading my home because i want so badly for people to see how underrated the eastern-most state in the US is – it’s the lack of disrespect & the mistreatment of my woods, my rivers, my home. do me a favor will you? when you travel outside of your homeland to see the wonders of america, use a little common sense, a little decorum. here’s a few do’s & don’t that may be good to follow:

DON’T: litter. i don’t visit your state or country & leave trash everywhere. i don’t care if you stay in a hotel or camp in your winnebago. just don’t throw your junk on the ground & expect someone else to pick it up, or worse yet, that it will magically disappear & that when you return again the next year, the place you long to see again (because once you see maine, you will always want to come back again. it gets into your blood whether you’re from away or not); is going to be still in it’s pristine state. (no pun intended) if you did not leave it that way.

DON’T: drive like you can in your own state. here we have traffic rules & laws &with the exception of young one who still feel the need to test the limits, we obey them. please don’t act as though you are being put out when you get a ticket for speeding or pulled over for tailgating or cutting people off & then honking at them or flipping them off like they’re the unjust.

DO: smell the trees. see the forests, the lupines, the lilacs. come to see the leaves turn & smell the smoky air in the fall

DO: come because we’re a state that likes to keep to ourselves, because mainers are essentially our own race of people & we’re one of a kind.

DO: visit here because it’s beautiful, because it’s quiet, because we have a little of everything, even weather-wise. because once you see it you’ll love it.

i love where i live. please love it too & even if you don’t, treat it well.

in other news, it’s pouring out & still hotter than hades & i’m off today. (both work & in my mood lol). people have to got to stop raising my hopes & making me see things that are not there. then again, you think i would have learned to take everything with a grain of salt by now. hear that universe? i love you. but you don’t fool me! 😉

therefore: a horror movie & some take-out chinese food seems in order. happy saturday, make the most of it! ❤

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Posted by sailorstakewarning on July 8, 2010

i have loved this letter since the first time i saw this episode of this show:

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